Laying It Down

When will we stop hurting each other?   Is it at all possible that we can stop hurting each other?    When will we practice honesty and truth.   We are so afraid of being hurt and in our quest to protect our hearts from hurt, we often ending hurting someone. When will we learn to LOVE ONE ANOTHER; to speak truth.  And in so doing learn that our hearts will hold out; our hearts are stronger than we know; we are stronger than we think, LOVE is stronger than fear and hurt. Happy Valentine Day!  Later

I woke up about 1o'clock this morning with ruminations that signified an appearance of the "black dog" so famously quoted by Winston Churchill.  I needed to connect with Spirit to remove that fear and apprehension; to face the world later in the day.  So I prayed and prayed and screamed and prayed and slept and prayed! The thing is though you pick up the newspapers and all one sees in the first few pages is tragedy.  Speak with friends and the state of life in TnT makes one want to drink!  I have no job, the kitchen upgrade is 8 days late, the house is upside down because of the kitchen works, I find it difficult to think in confusion and so on and so on.  I don't want to leave Trinidad but I sure as hell can't afford to re-create Exodus, so I must try something (where) different.  Where?  I am not convicted about any where. After 2 hours of being awake...doom and gloom, I could find nothing to make life seem bearable.  So I googled happy thin...

Hi, Keeping on with the resolutions theme, I started to think of the things that I don't want to do this year and boy o' boy is that list loooong.  I figured that the little brain can only do so much so if I am adding resolutions I'd better subtract a few things too.  So here we go.  In 2011, I will not: 1. Say yes to everything that I'm asked to do.  It is time to be a bit more discriminating even if it ends up hurting feelings. 2. Feel guilty for not passing on all those Jesus emails.   3. Hang with those who offer no stimulation - mentally, emotionally or any of the other "allys" we use.  I have to admit that I do know some users and abusers who must be quietly phased out of my life.  Actually it may be easier than I think since if I cannot give them what they want I rarely see them. 4. Tell myself that what I need and want is impossible to obtain . 5. Feel awful about growing old in a space where "d youts" seem to be the only one...

Hello, It's a beautiful day in Trinidad and I'm sure a just as beautiful day in Tobago too.  The sun is hot, the sky is really blue with fluffy white clouds and a wonderful breeze is blowing.  Looking at the day that God has made, I feel good!  My mind is grinning! Three days after the beginning of the new year I feel like writing about goals for 2011.  I've never made the making of new year's resolutions a habit but tend to do it on my birthday which is 2 days before the new year.  Birthdays always make me look at the past year, feel bad about the past year and resolve to do differently before the next birthday.  Most times in recalling the past year it seems that I've either been asleep and missed the cues that should have brought change or else I was like a hamster on a wheel - working my little legs off but not getting anywhere.  Well baby, all that has got to change.  Although I think the hamster on the wheel thing may stay because that j...

I spent the day helping my neighbour prepare for her birthday (January 1) party which will begin tonight and end on a bright new morning in the New Year.  O' we were busy making chicken pastelles, roasted turkey and chicken along with fish covered with apples (that was a new one for me) and pork and dressed-up rice and cheesy baked potatoes and stir-fried veggies.  Add to that the previously prepared fish and beef pastelles, the cakes - sponge, black and fruity iced birthday cake and... and..  The woman just has too much food but if you're expecting about 60 people you need a lot.  :)).  It was nice giving of myself and knocking back a couple of vodkas and orange juice - just walked to the back yard and picked the oranges, fresh. So as 2010 grows old and I listen to the sound of fireworks going off, I can forget about my horrendus annus, the poor Trinidad and Tobago economy, the killings by gun and by vehicles and all that is bad in the world. As I wait to r...

Hello, hello, hello, What words of wisdom do you hold in mind and put to use? What words of advice would you pass on to another?  Want to share? Please do! Watching life go by as the taxi sped along the highway.  Actually I was praying to the good God that we get to our destination safely since 'boyfriend' was driving just a bit too fast for me. Anyway, I began to think of the phrases that stick in the mind and how much I've used the advice emanating from said phrases.  I was trying to think of the proverbial 10 phrases but these are what came to mind. 1. Walk with 'vex' money.       Do you remember this one?  It was first indoctrinated in me at age 13 by an older cousin.  I hear that there was even a calyspo with this line in it.  It relates to ensure that you have enough funds to depart a date if things aren't going well.  I've always taken it to mean that I should have some semblance of  financial independence at al...

O' gosh have your felt the cool early morning breezes?  That cool, light, fresh-smelling breeze coming from the north, that brings a quivering to the nose and stirs up feelings which I cannot solidify into thought, which I cannot grasp but fills me with excitement down to my very toes and brings a big grin to my face because I know that Christmas is almost here! There are pastelles, sorrel and ginger beer and ponche de creme to make.  I need to add just a touch more cherry brandy to the already soaking fruits, soaking since last year, for that luscious black cake.  This year, a small ham and maybe just a turkey breast, reflecting the times.  O' yes, I must make garlic pork, even if it is only 1 pork chop I use.  Got to have fresh seasonings straight from Paramin and yes, the paranging, caroling and partying!  What fun!  Christmas is almost here! This year gifts will be spare but the desire to share is still there - something will happen, the kids i...