The Black Dog, Happiness, Community
I woke up about 1o'clock this morning with ruminations that signified an appearance of the "black dog" so famously quoted by Winston Churchill. I needed to connect with Spirit to remove that fear and apprehension; to face the world later in the day. So I prayed and prayed and screamed and prayed and slept and prayed!
The thing is though you pick up the newspapers and all one sees in the first few pages is tragedy. Speak with friends and the state of life in TnT makes one want to drink! I have no job, the kitchen upgrade is 8 days late, the house is upside down because of the kitchen works, I find it difficult to think in confusion and so on and so on. I don't want to leave Trinidad but I sure as hell can't afford to re-create Exodus, so I must try something (where) different. Where? I am not convicted about any where.
After 2 hours of being awake...doom and gloom, I could find nothing to make life seem bearable. So I googled happy things. Even before I had finished my search my little brain brought the happiness disk forward and I remembered the practice of 'New(s) and Good'. So for January 11, 2011 -nice date eh? these are the things that are new and good for me.
So what's your 'new (s) and good? SHARE! Post a Comment at the end of the page.
Then I started to think of the things that make me happy.
A good book, friends, a nice long walk, money in the bank, a reason for living, taking pictures, pottering in my garden - I've reaped tomatoes - I'm a farmer! LOL. Simple things but they do indeed bring peace of mind.
Tell me, how do you define happiness? - Post a Comment at the end of the page.
Now I've begun to think about the gifts I have to offer and ah kinda stuck because while I know I have gifts I need to find a way to offer them to the community. It is so scary because now the concept of community is changing and in changes there is a lot of loss. I'm quite sure there are people in my own community whom I could teach to read and there may be someone who can help me overcome my fear of accounting or teach me how to really wield a hammer or cutlass in the garden? The thing is though are these things needed, necessary, worthy in this brave new world we are forging in Trinidad and Tobago? Can I barter my managerial skills for wood-working and horticultural skills? Is there a young person out there who is willing to teach me about Cloud technology and so awaken my IT interests? Is there a man out there, young or old who would take the time to guide/be-friend some other man especially a young one who needs support? If you've got the patience perhaps you could go shopping with an elder or just make an at home visit. What do you think?
I would love to connect. Are there like-minded souls out there in cyberworld? Would doing for others, the only reward being a smile on your face and peace in your heart be "your thing"?
I'm feeling happier already!
Later
The thing is though you pick up the newspapers and all one sees in the first few pages is tragedy. Speak with friends and the state of life in TnT makes one want to drink! I have no job, the kitchen upgrade is 8 days late, the house is upside down because of the kitchen works, I find it difficult to think in confusion and so on and so on. I don't want to leave Trinidad but I sure as hell can't afford to re-create Exodus, so I must try something (where) different. Where? I am not convicted about any where.
After 2 hours of being awake...doom and gloom, I could find nothing to make life seem bearable. So I googled happy things. Even before I had finished my search my little brain brought the happiness disk forward and I remembered the practice of 'New(s) and Good'. So for January 11, 2011 -nice date eh? these are the things that are new and good for me.
- I am off to the movies this afternoon. Globe still has 2 movies for 30 bucks and balcony isn't that bad.
- I've re-connected with an old friend and its good!
- God came through again. The black dog is now skulking in a corner.
So what's your 'new (s) and good? SHARE! Post a Comment at the end of the page.
Then I started to think of the things that make me happy.
A good book, friends, a nice long walk, money in the bank, a reason for living, taking pictures, pottering in my garden - I've reaped tomatoes - I'm a farmer! LOL. Simple things but they do indeed bring peace of mind.
Tell me, how do you define happiness? - Post a Comment at the end of the page.
Now I've begun to think about the gifts I have to offer and ah kinda stuck because while I know I have gifts I need to find a way to offer them to the community. It is so scary because now the concept of community is changing and in changes there is a lot of loss. I'm quite sure there are people in my own community whom I could teach to read and there may be someone who can help me overcome my fear of accounting or teach me how to really wield a hammer or cutlass in the garden? The thing is though are these things needed, necessary, worthy in this brave new world we are forging in Trinidad and Tobago? Can I barter my managerial skills for wood-working and horticultural skills? Is there a young person out there who is willing to teach me about Cloud technology and so awaken my IT interests? Is there a man out there, young or old who would take the time to guide/be-friend some other man especially a young one who needs support? If you've got the patience perhaps you could go shopping with an elder or just make an at home visit. What do you think?
I would love to connect. Are there like-minded souls out there in cyberworld? Would doing for others, the only reward being a smile on your face and peace in your heart be "your thing"?
I'm feeling happier already!
Later
Jin Jin
ReplyDeleteI totally agree about being inundated with negativity (our so called "reality") by our media. I had chosen to enjoy my Christmas by not listening/viewing ANY local news/talk shows and did. However I decided to check in for the New Year. Bad decision...Lord we Trinis can complain! See even I am doing it:))
So I decided to visit some old friends and to invite a beloved older couple to come along with me they turned out to be even closer to my friends than I. We spent a wonderful Trini-style day laughing ourselves silly as we reminisced and got caught up. What a blessing - true friends are and THAT'S ALL GOOD.