Laying It Down

I woke up about 1o'clock this morning with ruminations that signified an appearance of the "black dog" so famously quoted by Winston Churchill.  I needed to connect with Spirit to remove that fear and apprehension; to face the world later in the day.  So I prayed and prayed and screamed and prayed and slept and prayed! The thing is though you pick up the newspapers and all one sees in the first few pages is tragedy.  Speak with friends and the state of life in TnT makes one want to drink!  I have no job, the kitchen upgrade is 8 days late, the house is upside down because of the kitchen works, I find it difficult to think in confusion and so on and so on.  I don't want to leave Trinidad but I sure as hell can't afford to re-create Exodus, so I must try something (where) different.  Where?  I am not convicted about any where. After 2 hours of being awake...doom and gloom, I could find nothing to make life seem bearable.  So I googled happy things.  Even before

Hi, Keeping on with the resolutions theme, I started to think of the things that I don't want to do this year and boy o' boy is that list loooong.  I figured that the little brain can only do so much so if I am adding resolutions I'd better subtract a few things too.  So here we go.  In 2011, I will not: 1. Say yes to everything that I'm asked to do.  It is time to be a bit more discriminating even if it ends up hurting feelings. 2. Feel guilty for not passing on all those Jesus emails.   3. Hang with those who offer no stimulation - mentally, emotionally or any of the other "allys" we use.  I have to admit that I do know some users and abusers who must be quietly phased out of my life.  Actually it may be easier than I think since if I cannot give them what they want I rarely see them. 4. Tell myself that what I need and want is impossible to obtain . 5. Feel awful about growing old in a space where "d youts" seem to be the only one

Hello, It's a beautiful day in Trinidad and I'm sure a just as beautiful day in Tobago too.  The sun is hot, the sky is really blue with fluffy white clouds and a wonderful breeze is blowing.  Looking at the day that God has made, I feel good!  My mind is grinning! Three days after the beginning of the new year I feel like writing about goals for 2011.  I've never made the making of new year's resolutions a habit but tend to do it on my birthday which is 2 days before the new year.  Birthdays always make me look at the past year, feel bad about the past year and resolve to do differently before the next birthday.  Most times in recalling the past year it seems that I've either been asleep and missed the cues that should have brought change or else I was like a hamster on a wheel - working my little legs off but not getting anywhere.  Well baby, all that has got to change.  Although I think the hamster on the wheel thing may stay because that just seems to be lif