Freedom
This morning I awoke knowing that I am free!
Have you ever watched film which showed the releasing of an animal, the opening of a cage and the reactions of the animal upon realising that it can come out into the world, nothing barring it? Well, that's me, this morning.
I've always been bound by love. Everything I have ever done was because of love-my need to give it, to have it, not to lose it and trust me, that need has always left me with a feeling of being buffetted, like flotsam. I'm always trying to keep my head above the water; gasping for air. Many times, I've been dragged down by this unconscious and self-imposed requirement - to love and be loved - and I've realised that those I was so desperately trying to please, begging to love me may have saved me because I did what they wanted me to do at that time not because their first instinct was love of or for me. And that statement is applicable to relatives and friends.
Love, such a simple yet complicated thing. O' I know all that may be missing from this chat are the violins but this is not meant to be a 'sob story' and I in no way feel melancholy. What I do feel is elation, confusion, joy. I can use my new-found freedom to love myself, and others according to my terms and conditions and I'll accept the consequences with a new and more positive attitude ! I' m smiling all over my face!
What freedoms have you found lately? What freedoms do you need to find? Ask yourself, "what's the next best decision"?
Have you ever watched film which showed the releasing of an animal, the opening of a cage and the reactions of the animal upon realising that it can come out into the world, nothing barring it? Well, that's me, this morning.
I've always been bound by love. Everything I have ever done was because of love-my need to give it, to have it, not to lose it and trust me, that need has always left me with a feeling of being buffetted, like flotsam. I'm always trying to keep my head above the water; gasping for air. Many times, I've been dragged down by this unconscious and self-imposed requirement - to love and be loved - and I've realised that those I was so desperately trying to please, begging to love me may have saved me because I did what they wanted me to do at that time not because their first instinct was love of or for me. And that statement is applicable to relatives and friends.
Love, such a simple yet complicated thing. O' I know all that may be missing from this chat are the violins but this is not meant to be a 'sob story' and I in no way feel melancholy. What I do feel is elation, confusion, joy. I can use my new-found freedom to love myself, and others according to my terms and conditions and I'll accept the consequences with a new and more positive attitude ! I' m smiling all over my face!
What freedoms have you found lately? What freedoms do you need to find? Ask yourself, "what's the next best decision"?
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