I'm thinking of you

Wrote this on my cell on August 25, 2015.  I reproduce it just as it came out of my brain, no corrections in grammar, structure or content, since this came from the heart. 

Tonight as I was having my snack of peanut butter sandwiched between slices of apple, I turned to give Feo his share and was reminded that he was with me no more.  It is 4 months since he was spooked and ran off and o' how much I miss my baby.  

That's my boy Feo!

He was my companion always eager to see me, waiting patiently to hear the word "come" and his head would bow and the tail would wag as he hurried towards me and upon arriving touching my toes very gently and only for a millisecond.  The he would begin to talk.  He was especially talkative after he got epilepsy, earlier this year, telling me in puppy talk of his love for me, of his joy at seeing me. Sometimes, I'd scold him telling him that he was middle-aged at 6 years of age, just like me, so puppy talk had to stop!  

Yet, I still babied him most of the times ensuring he got healthy meals chocked full of vegetables.  He wasn't a greedy dog when it came to meals and snacks and often left food in his bowl.  As a matter of fact, each time he'd put on a bit of weight and finally look like other dogs with meat on his spine and a thickened waistline, he would self-diet!  I would remark "Feo, finally both of us have thickened waistlines" and the next thing I know he is not eating much and soon he's back to his lanky self!  

He never begged for food only lots of loving.  Feo would nudge and nudge until he got that head rub, a big hug or a scratch near  the beginning of his tail, which would make him dance.  He loved sitting under my legs and in latter periods he seemed to enjoy laying on the floor near to me, as I went about my chores.  Many people would be upset at the amount of attention he received but jealousy got them no where.  He was my dog, my pup-pup  with all rights in our home.  

So yes, we ate apples with peanut butter or cheese, carrots,  and even water-cress together.  He had his shampoo, his Vienna sausages, cod liver oil and his ears were cleaned  with a bit of cotton moistened with lavender infused water.  It calmed his little nerves because you know, he was a bit jumpy and a little coward.  I miss my animal companion.

My darling Feo